I Hate and I Love
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About the Work
"I Hate and I Love" takes its title from the famous two-line poem by the Roman poet Catullus (Carmen 85): "Odi et amo" - translation below.
The piece explores my personal experience of struggling as a student composer, with loving music but finding the process of creation very difficult.
To compose the piece, I stripped out everything except harmony so I could focus on writing expressively without being encumbered by techniques. On reflection, I feel that the use of consistent held chords is inspired very much by the music of Arvo Pärt which has been a tremendous influence on me as a composer and singer.
Technical Details
Instrumentation
2 Violins, Viola, Cello
(Standard String Quartet)
Duration
8 minutes 30 seconds
Inspiration: Catullus, Carmen 85
Latin Original
Odi et amo. Quare id faciam fortasse requiris.
Nescio, sed fieri sentio et excrucior.
English Translation
I hate and I love. And if you ask me how,
I do not know: I only feel it, and I'm torn in two.
Performance Notes
Vibrato should be kept to a minimum and saved for moments of emotional climax.
Score
Please find the score below. If you are interested in performing this piece, please get in touch.
⬇ I Hate and I Love Score (PDF)Credits
Composer
Cloe Savannah Hotham
Inspiration
Catullus, Carmen 85 (1st century BCE)
Translation
Translated by Peter Whigham (1966). Published by Penguin Books (2015).
Recording
Recorded in workshop by the Ligeti Quartet at the Guildhall School of Music & Drama, London